Clay Aiken...Gay...Can we send him back?

Hey Gays,

Oh, what a big surprise that Clay Aiken is gay. I can't believe it!! I'm stunned!! I'm just a twitter!!! No, not really...

Can we give him back to the straights? As gays shouldn't we have the right to say who gets in the club after denying their gayness for so many years, like it was a bad thing.....



Of course I'm joking but really is this any big surprise? The first time I saw him on AI I was like he's a big Mo....and to think that poor Kathy Griffin was lambasted by other AI competitors for saying so that season. The poor thing was almost attacked at one of his concerts by the Claymates.

I haven't read the people magazine article but I'm sure he didn't want to come out because his image wouldn't allow it, he had to make sure he made enough money that when he did come out it didn't matter. I usually like the artists that come out first and try and make it on who they are, rather than what the mainstream wants for their celebs images. Its all really sad to me.

Well anyway, welcome to the club Clay and I'm sure you'll soon find a place on LOGO or on the advocate cover every other month about your gay life....how fun!

Oh! just one more thing, Clay is coming back to Broadway, isn't it funny how Simon Cowell tells many of the singers on AI that they are too cabaret or Broadway when almost all of them end up in a Broadway show.....even ones that get kicked off for showing their tits like Frenchie Davis, it's too funny...

XO, BT

Paul Newman RIP

Hey gays,

I heard of Paul Newman's passing and had a bit of sadness about it. I guess it was because I remember liking Butch Cassidy and the sundance kid

Then this morning I saw a piece about him but it more centered on his marriage to Joanne Woodward. The piece was well done and I actually cried a bit when they were showing pictures of the two of them. They all had Paul looking at Joanne always with a lot of love in his eyes. Though he was a striking looking man, he seemed always to be humble. I don't know much about him , really but I guess when I saw the pictures it was interesting to see how someones love can actually be seen through the eyes and how wonderful that Joanne was the recipient of that much love...It's really interesting to me, the eyes I guess...

XO, BT

One of the faces of Greed

Hey gays,

We all know whats going on with the economy! It's the same as always...Republicans get into office and cut the wealthy people's taxes in hopes that by pumping them with more money that they'll know how to invest it and spend it in order for the excess wealth to trickle down to the middle class and the poor....mmmmm Reagan started it and it didn't work then, Bush made it even more of a platform to dive into and guess what it still doesn't work. Plus, why is it they trust rich white people to do the right thing??? They usually don't, they usually pump themselves full of cash and then run for the hills when things get bad and let someone else deal with it.....

The problem is that everything has become so tied into the stock market that there really is not much hope for unsavy people or those who don't have the know how on where to even begin to play.

I bet things were a lot better when companies were private and people that owned them were ok with just having enough, it wasn't always about how much more can I get...that mentality is killing this country and the world.

As I watch all of this Crisis unfold in front of my eyes there is one sector I feel that has been going unscathed, by that, I mean right now it's the banks and the sub prime lenders getting all the blame and of course they should take the brunt of it.


It is the Real Estate companies ethics that no one ever questions. It's weird, they are the ones people depend on to try and get them a good deal, correct, no I don't think so because a realtor only goes by what the "market" says by doing research and they usually are the ones who determine the final price to sell a home. The thing is Realtors work on commission so they want the houses they sell to go for the most they can because that means more money in their pocket. To me it's a really crooked racket. I found this quote by a realtor giving their opinion about who sets a sale price

My job as a Realtor is to help buyers and sellers understand market value by providing competent research of our local market. I am good at what I do, but I don’t control the market, I only interpret it.
Someone once said, “The market may not be kind, but it is never wrong.”

In other words, your home is worth not what I think it is, nor what you think it is, but only what the market says it is.

So this means, really, that a realtor sets the price by "market", not what they "feel" it is worth. That is a load of crap. They want to inflate prices to make more money don't they? Honestly, the apartment I live in was bought in 1998 for 80K an now the "market" says it can be sold for 499K....that is outrageous to me. This really is why people can't buy a home. I think that a home should be something that we live in, not necessarily something we expect to make a fortune on.

This gets to my point. It kills me when I see Barbara Corcoran on shows giving advice about what is going on with the market and all of a sudden saying you can't play the housing market, you should be buying a home to live in and as a long term investment. In my eyes she's one of the problems. Company's like hers are the ones that have inflated the "market" to where it's hard for an average person to buy a home in NYC especially. The main reason I think this is because as a real estate company they used the whole angle of investment to make cash, IE. flipping. You know buying a cheaper home, throwing in a granite counter top and selling it for twice than it was worth but now she's changed her tune. That's the criminal element to this crisis and she was laughing all the way to the bank...it just amazes me that no one ever questions real estate companies and their practices. It seems they place themselves as a third party with no responsibilities for the prices they set for homes.

I'm no economic genius but I feel someone should say something about it. I never hear anything about those companies. I for one can't stand the sight of Barbara Corcoran and wouldn't follow her advice.

XO, BT

The Next Big Step

Hey Gays,

Well, I feel yesterday was a big day for me and my performing.

I mentioned in the past that I've been working on a new project called
"For the Love of Judy". It is my story and struggles with coming to terms
with who I am as a person and choices I made in my life to where I am now. In a
broad over view I will transform myself on stage into Judy garland, the person who I feel originally gave me my voice as a performer, she was my catalyst, the one
who inspired me to take a chance on performance.

Yesterday, I asked someone to direct this show. This is a big step for me. In the past I have written, performed, produced and directed myself with the help of course with my hubby Jeff. He does a lot more for my performances then he'll take credit for believe me and I am so thankful for what he has given me. I just felt I needed a new voice in my work, someone who will be honest and critical.

The weird thing is the woman I asked is someone I don't know that well. I saw her host a show once and she was really funny, she does this Liza impersonation that is really out there, though masterful. We spoke to her briefly after the show and I just loved her voice and the way she spoke. Then again we saw her at a show and approached her and chatted. We were talking about work and her new show and for some reason I stood there and stared at her and thought.

This is the woman I want to direct this show. It was a gut instinct and I knew i wanted a woman to direct me, I felt this show needed a woman to guide it. This fabulous woman's stage name is Howlin Vic and she is a performance artist, writer and teacher. She is interesting and dark. I love to know people that are a little dark, it fascinates me. We met yesterday and discussed the project and she accepted the challenge and was really excited about it.

Victoria acknowledged that she had directed in college and now focuses more on teaching performance art and burlesque. I think she'll be perfect for this show plus with her having such a connection with Liza and Judy add even more relevance to the project.

I'm really excited about having someone I can learn from and challenge me as a performer. It'll also be a process of letting go of what my idea of MargOH! is and expand to possibilities.

This is a big step for me.....

XO, BT

Feeling Helpless

Hey Gays,

I feel fat right now, that's for sure, I'm now 218 pounds, for my height I should weight like 170-180. There are people who would say I'm not fat. I try every day to be positive about myself and most days I succeed but today there are factors bigger than me contributing to my helplessness.

I'm feeling a little down about it at the moment. I would like to be fitter I guess because my cholesterol is high. The thing is I don't eat horribly for meals but it's the snacking that is the issue. I'm a chip-a-holic. Just to give you an example, though there were reasons behind it after I left our friends last week I ate a whole bag of Blue Cheese/Buffalo hot Doritos's. I can't control myself and as I sit here writing this I just laughed.....it's crazy.

I just never had the mindset to work out. I feel I'm trapped by my own laziness or motivation to do it. I wish I could get back to the place in 1997-98 when I was on the Atkins diet and was so focused on it that I went from 215 to 185 and kept it off for like 2 years, I was just more active at that time.

I'm just feeling blah about it today I guess. I wish, I wish , I wish.

The other thing that is on my mind is my youngest brother who over the years has had many issues including heroine addiction, a 2 year stint in prison and now Anorexia. Yes, this fat ass has a family member who at the moment he is my height and weights 105 pounds. He is skinny!

I'm really worried, though I know at this point, there is not much anyone can do besides himself. He needs to realize he is killing himself. I did tell him that he looked thin and that he should try to gain a little weight. I said he should try and see if he can maintain is weight at like 120 pounds. I know this is still thin but i was trying to make it seem like he'd still be thin but wouldn't have to focus on health issue's. I just don't know.

I do know one thing and that my mother is in semi-denial. He also has celiac like me and she is thinking the pain in his stomach and constipation is from the Celiac but its not. It is in relation to Anorexia. He did start going to a nutritionist and she has him drinking protein drinks and things like ensure and she also recommended a person who deals with eating disorders so I think Wednesday he is going to that person.

He has gotten over many things including the heroine,prison, Hepatitis C but I don't know about this, I don't know if he can beat this. This is the root cause of his issues, he says. He was chunky in grade school and a bunch of girls would make fun of him and ridicule him, he said that was the reason he started doing drugs but now food deprivation is his latest fix.

I just feel helpless.

If anyone reading has any knowledge of Anorexia or how to talk to a person dealing with it please let me know. I'd like to help or give guidance.

XO, BT

The O'Neal Fawcetts

Hey Gays,

I know you've probably all heard about the drug bust of Ryan O'Neal and his son Redmond. Of course, the whole family has had issues including Tatum, who I just saw on Oprah. I don't know what it is but I have always liked Tatum even though she can be really fucked up. I guess it is the whole identifying with my childhood, I love "The bad news bears" and "Little darlings", it's a good feeling connection. I also think she is really pretty. I still think she is attractive even though she looks harder than in the past...go figure.

Now getting to looks which is why I wrote this entry. You know Ryan was hot when he was younger and Farrah Fawcett was just gorgeous but somehow the son is like, yuk! A red head? I do like red heads, not a jab at them but I would think the offspring of these two would be gorgeous but he's not attractive at all. He's a bit scary looking actually. I guess he looks more like Ryan but like Ryan looks now. Just very strange to me



Shutter....

XO, BT

Is Biden to be replaced?

Hey gays,

My hubby Jeff sent me this article about the democratic party pressuring Obama to dump Biden and replace him with Hillary.

I wonder if this is true? I honestly thought that Biden was a poor choice for Obama, it was, to me, going away from his message of radical change and thats why Mccain picked this nutjob Sarah Palin. It's all Crazy. I'm already tired of this election but thankfully its almost over.

Check out the Article! Any thoughts gays?

XO, BT

Friends , Family and good food

Hey Gays,

Had a fabulous weekend! It's so great when you have friends and family to be able to do things with and feel comfortable.

On Saturday we headed up to visit our friends Jeff and Glenn. Jeff put together a fabulous meal for us, Tapas to be more specific, everything was great and just perfect, I especially loved the Chorizo dish with potato's, just tasty. We brought wine and dessert and the dessert was really good, we got little cakes from Black Hound. When Glenn picked us up from the train and brought us back to the apartment and opened up the trunk to pull out a case of wine...we had brought 2 bottles, he knows us so well..LOL.

We had a great time chatting about issues and laying the gay on the table, meaning , just talking about our lives and struggles as well as fun times. The thing is we are all a little different. My Jeff is a little headstrong and very blunt, Glenn is gentle but extremely intelligent and observant, Glenn's Jeff is an artist of the talk, and I mean that in a good way, he's so articulate and dramatic in tone, I love his voice and how his words flow and then there is me, then there is me, I think I always try and bring a little comic relief to everything.

We always have great talks and sometimes we don't always agree on everything but we usually understand each other's points of view. I didn't bring the camera so I didn't take any pics but believe me we were laughing, crying and enjoying our night and the drink added to the fun. We are planning a trip to Newport, RI next month so that should be fun!

On Sunday I had planned on going to my Aunts house in Connecticut to keep a family tradition alive.

You see when I was young my Grandmother, Sophie, was always bottling things. She always had a huge garden and every summer she would pickle everything she could get her hands on, LOL. She would also make hot peppers that would knock your socks off. The one thing that she made though that I loved was something called "Chili Sauce". Today it would be considered Salsa.

As a kid it would always be a big event to help make Chili Sauce and Nana would only do it once every few years because she'd make a huge amount that would last for 2-3 years. The other thing is she said you could only make it towards the end of the summer or early fall because you needed really ripe tomato's to do it.

In 2003 my Aunt used the last jar of Chili Sauce that was made in 1997 and my Nana died in 2001 so no one has been there to make Chili Sauce....sad. While on vacation in Florida I talked to my Aunt and we decided to carry on the tradition and make it in September and we did.

It made me really happy because I haven't felt close to my Nana lately and felt I needed to be close again. The really fun thing was that Nana only wrote down the ingredients for everything she would make but not the amounts so making chili sauce and have it taste like she made it is the challenge. It takes all day plus the night before to prep the tomato's...

So my Aunt Karen, my mother Barbara, My Father Joe, My sister Kim and my Niece Heather got together to try and replicate my grand mother Sophie's recipe.

Here are some pictures and we did it while drinking wine....of course... And yes
that's my father wearing the cut off T, it doesn't matter how old he gets , he still thinks he's a stud..insane.

After it is bottled and steamed shut you have to let it sit for a week before tasting. My Aunt said she had a little left over that didn't get bottled and she said it was really spicy but tasted pretty close to Sophie's...I can't wait to taste it, it'll be like going to Nana's house again!

XO, BT

Broadway world Press Release

Hey Gays,

Fatee made it in Broadway world.com I usually just get a posting for old MargOH! but they actually gave me a news flash today about my upcoming show.

I don't know but I feel a change coming, momentum or something...maybe my forties will be fabulous...yikes, I mean thirties...I'm actually 29...LOL

Check it out!

XO, BT

I'm Electioned OuT

Hey Gays,

Had a great weekend, Friends, family, good food and fun!

I took a whole bunch of pics but haven't uploaded yet so I'll tell the tale of my weekend tomorrow.

Any who, the other major thing going on in every one's lives is this damn election. I'm tired already, even before the first debate and you want to know why....

I think I'm tired of the political process being mixed with celebrity, not meaning that politicians mingle with celebrities but that the media forces politicians to become celebrities. The reason I started to think this was the other day when I was checking out at the supermarket and "People" magazine had the the McCain Clan on the cover. I know this has been going on for a while but it used to be that political crap was covered by magazine's like Time, Newsweek and of course Newspapers.

People really is a celeb magazine. This just shows how politics has become a circus. I don't want to see people who are suppose to be working for us on the same pages as J-Lo. It just doesn't seem right to me.

At this point I'm afraid John McCain is going to win so I decided to think he is going to win so if he in fact does I'll be able to handle it. To be honest this is in fear of me running into the street crying, sobbing and getting hit by a car. As a New Yorker I feel helpless because It really depends on what the independent and republican and even Palin lovin white folk democratic freaks in the Midwest decide..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahm, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahm, aaaaaaaaaaaaahm...I'm now chanting for the relief of my stress... ; )

XO, BT

Gay Life Expo

Hey Gays,

I got some exciting news. I was booked to perform at the Gay Life Expo in NYC.

The funny thing is that I have sent in a press kit in past years and never heard anything back. This time I emailed and sent and electronic press kit and in a few hours they offered me a spot....Go figure! They usually say sending in a formal press kit is more effective...

The expo is always a fun way to meet people and mingle. I've been twice and usually they have very good entertainment, etc.

This event is sponsored by HX which is fabulous because now I can be more visible for print in the future...Does this mean I will have more gays coming to my show's. I hope so!!

XO, BT

Interesting "Fat" Gene Articlle

Hey Gays,

I found this snippet about people of European descent having a "Fat" Gene

I'm sure some people are genetically bound to carry more fat. I see it all in my family. I have 2 siblings that are thin, one that is average, but he was an athlete and worked out all the time and my youngest brother also has the same struggles with weight that I do.

It seems to me that it's obvious there are links. My mother was always thinner in her younger days and my father was too but he gained a lot of weight and my fathers father was huge. I would always think I was cursed with my father's side's weight problem.

Now my hair of course is almost all gone, LOL but my father has thick curly wavy hair and my mothers hair is very thin...who knows.

I love how the article states exercise will help...LOL. I love that! Do we not hear that everyday!

XO, BT

The Urban Beach

Hey Gays,

On Sunday I had to go to my piano man's place out in Rockaway Park, Queens. I of course being a manhattan dweller shuttered at the notion of a 1.5 hour train ride out there, yikes. Who in the hell would want to live out there....

The trip was probably like 2 hours each way from door to door. I had never been down there before but I have to say that the beach is enormous and the boardwalk is really nice. it reminded me of the coast of connecticut, where I grew up. I was really shocked at the amount of beach and then I was told it was the largest Urban beach in the world.

There are so many things to do the NYC area and honestly you only get to do and see a portion of it. I think next summer we'll have to go down for the day for some beach fun and hang out.

Here are a couple of pics from the boardwalk, really nice




Who knew??

XO, BT

Hard hearted Hanna

Hey Gays,

We were suppose to go have a lovely dinner with friends tonight but the MTA system can't handle anything when it rains. They already put out a warning for service disruptions before we have a drop of rain...

I hate that! Our friends do live in upper Manhattan so it's like a 45 minute subway ride and some of it is above ground so i guess if you have 50 mile an hour winds that could pose a problem. I was looking forward to a good time though after the workweek so I guess I better run out and get some booze.

I think we'll do mojito's. Is there really anything else to do during a huge rainstorm in NYC but drink...I hate when it rains here, its so messy to get around. It's 2pm and no rain yet so Hanna better not be a bust, damn her! I want to sheets of rain..LOL

Ok, so then let me tell you about what happened on Thursday. I was supposed to get vitamin b 12 shots per my gastro doctors recommendation. He told me to call my primary care doctor to set them up so I called them (Callen Lorde)and set them up. Now i asked them if i needed a script or something because gastro guy didn't give me one. They said no, you just some in for the shot.

So I go on Thursday and am brought back by one of the nurses named Will and when I get in the room , he said "Do you have it", i said "have what?"he then said "the b-12, we don't have that on hand , usually you pick up at pharmacy and then we just inject it". I of course was like "Oh, my doc said to just come here" and got up and kind of huffed out of the room and he tried to apologize and I said don;t worry my dr. is an idiot. So then I went to the gastro guy to ask for a script to get the b-12and then reset the appointment for shot. They tell me that my primary needs to prescribe it and have it on hand and they give me a script to the primary to set up an appointment to have them get me B-12.

This whole thing is a mess and it just proves to me that the medical community has become more and more chaotic. Nothing is easy anymore and I think it is because of Insurance companies, they have all these doctors dumbed down, not sure what they can and cannot do, it's very odd. The patient is the only on who suffers and at this point I just want to forget about it. I'm going to call my primary doctor again and try and figure out what to do, though this seemed like this would be a no brainer..

The funny thing was this morning it dawned on me after listening to Sirius that the nurse who I was dealing with at Callen Lorde was Will Wikle. I guess he's in that movie another gay sequel and one of the actors mentioned he is still a nurse by day in NY..It must have been him but he shaved most of his hair off but now that I think about it, it was Will Wikle from LOGO travel show. Oh, dear I gave Will Wikle attitude...yikes!! LOL. if I go back will he stick me harder...

I do have to figure this out or this fat gay will go crazy...I need my shots!!

This is me tired of it all



XO, BT

Big Fat Friday

Hey Gays,

I'm so thrilled that it's Friday. I'm working on all my new shows and this weekend starts the getting to the grindstone. I must start ordering promo card's, sending out Press releases...All those fun things..

I'm very busy the next couple of Months.

MargOH! is

Hosting a Burlesque Show September 19 called Sugar Shack Burlesque. This Clip is of my friend La JohnJoseph performing in the Berkshires of all Places. My hosting gig though is at the living theater in NY. It's a midnight show and will be fun

On October 10Th I'm part of "The Incredible Edible Cabaret Show". My man and I our doing our infamous Madonna Medley



The on October 16Th I'm doing my latest burlesque show . It's going to be a fun couple of Months.




Not bad for a big chunky gay..LOL Oops I just realized this poster is a little blue, it was red when I received it, gotta change that. If any gays reading this blog are in the NY area, come by and see the show!

XO, BT

Sarah Palin, I can't fucking believe it

Hey Gays,

Well now...I've been quiet on politics because you know its a losing battle, i feel, to even discuss it...

Our government is so out of control on all levels for 2 reasons, I believe.

One is money and the other is complacency. As far as money goes the shift in wealth in this country and around the world is not good. The gap between the rich and the middle class and the poor has become too vast and people who shouldn't have money are loaded with it, jackasses that play the stock market and win don't tend to spend their money on anything but themselves, big houses, big cars, etc. etc. etc. When the balance of wealth is more even then it seems the world is a more bearable place. Living in NYC you get to see first hand the crazy of wealth up close and gays it is scary.

The second is complacency, the knowing that everything is fucked up but not doing anything about it. We now live in a country where protesting is looked upon as being unpatriotic. To tell you the truth if it weren't for protests in this country(violent ones), nothing would have ever happened. I marched during the Republican convention when they were in NY in 2004 and though I felt good about Marching, I felt that it was worthless because when other Americans think it is okay to go to war for no reason and argue amongst themselves rather than at the government than nothing will change. The last time there was radical change in this country was the 1960's and early 70's and back then we had violent protests that shook people up. Today, nothing changes because no one wants to listen.

This brings me to my title Sarah Palin. Talk about something that comes out of utter complacency, I've never seen anything like this before. John McCain, the maverick, picks a running mate just because he thinks he can gain women's votes. I know all Presidential nominee's pick running mates to gain a state or a minority vote, etc., but choosing this woman just goes to show you how the government knows people in this country are dumb. They really think people will fall for this smoke screen.

Do we really want this woman to possibly be president. I could not imagine it...but as I sit here and write this people are actually contemplating it. We are also being told that her 17 year old daughter "Bristol" should be off limits....why? isn't it important to know that a person who could become president by default mothers her children.

I give you this..take a look at Chelsea Clinton and then take a look at "Bristol", please take a look at Amy Carter compared to this situation. It amazes me how people look at everything so black and white. I know not all kids are a product how a parent raises a child but honestly when i look at those kids with her, they look manipulated and forced into behaving a certain way. I also love how "Bristol" held her baby brother to hide her stomach....I just can't get over republicans and how they process situations.

I'm not a violent person but why is there no upheavals any longer. I think Cindy Sheehan was the closest person we have had to a radical in a long time. I think we need more Cindy sheehans in our country or we'll keep ending up with people like Sarah Palin in power, which truly sucks...

Plus look at that nut Cindy McCain, what a nut job she is....she has to hold onto her tax break or else!

XO, BT

My favorite Movies

hey gays,

One of the comments posted made me think of "Steel magnolia's". One of my favorite movies especially for one liner's. After I thought about it I realized all of my favorite movies with a few exception's are movies filled with classic "One Liners"

Here are a few of my favorites and the one liners I love

"Moonstruck"

Do you love him, Loretta? Aw, ma, I love him awful.Oh, God, that's too bad.

Now he's going to play that damn Vicki Carr record, and when he comes to bed he won't touch me.

I can't sleep any more. It's too much like death.


"Hairspray" (The original, not the new crappy musical)

It's the times. They are a-changin'. Something's blowing in the wind. Fetch me my diet pills, would you?

Fatty, fatty, two-by-four. Can't get through the dressing room door?

I watch that tramp and I'm embarrassed to be white.

"Die Mommie Die"

Buster, if you want any singin' outta me, you better haul out that bratwurst and spread some mustard on it.

Darling daughter, you sound like a square from Squaresville.

"Death Becomes Her"

This is life's ultimate cruelty. It offers us a taste of youth and vitality, and then it makes us witness our own decay.

Wrinkled, wrinkled little star... hope they never see the scars.


"Nine to Five"

Well, I say we hire a couple'a wranglers to go upstairs and beat the shit out of him.

I'm no fool. I've killed the boss, you think they're not gonna fire me for a thing like that?


There are so many but these are just a few and some of these lines I use from time to time....just for the hell of it!!

Anyone else have any favorite "one-liner" movies...

XO, BT

Fat-ee gay Going to Berlin

Hey Gays,

In the past few weeks I found out I would have a chance to travel to Berlin.

It is going to be a short visit but I can't wait! I'll be there from October 1-5.
I know the blog fatngay owner is from germany and I've had quite a few hits from Germany on this blog.

Anyone have any suggestions or things to do in Berlin or maybe even meet up to show old BT a good time.

Also I would love to perform while I'm there. Does anyone know of a drag club thats open to let a gal do a number?

Let me know

XO, BT