Saturday, August 30, 2008

Another Year, No Glammy

Hey Gays,

Now I briefly brushed over the fact that I am a drag performer. I wasn't sure if I was going to get into my alter-ego on here because I feel I put a lot of time into her and this was a bit of an escape to talk about myself.

In the end I guess they can't be separated...LOL. The character is part of me but very different in a lot of ways. MargOH! , that's her, MargOH! Channing was this character i created because all I ever wanted to do was sing. I can't sing so she gave me the opportunity through Lip Synch to experience what it would be like to be that person. I threw myself into MargOH! and it started out that I impersonated Judy and Liza with great fan fair in Rhode Island.

Though I was popular up there I usually would perform my shows as the character's so if i did Judy i got up and did all Judy or if i did Liza I did all Liza including banter and all. So i never was the type of act where i was a brassy, bawdy drag queen that people flocked to.

People really respected my ability to Lip Synch and emote feeling from the songs I performed and i was proud of that but i always thought something was missing so I stopped performing for 5 years with the exception of a benefit or something...Though in Rhode Island I'm still known and when i go back I'm always asked to perform a number and never pay for drinks..LOL

Flash to NYC. I wasn't sure how i was going to go about being MargOH! here. Though NYC is a hot bed for Drag Activity, it was mostly associated with the bar Scene so I tried a bit when we arrived. I did some contests performing Liza and did well but i had gained some weight and I didn't look as much like her I feel so I didn't win anything or have anyone falling all over me. It was fine!Also things change and i wasn't into going out to bars anymore so the thought of getting in drag 4-5 nights a week to promote myself all over again didn't seem like an option.

One night Jeff and I were drinking and listening to music and we came up with an idea. We'll bring the drag queens to us by creating a cable Access TV Talk Show called "The MargOH! Channing Show". The same night we brainstormed and made up a whole back story about MargOH!, honestly in one night we decided that MargOH! would be the daughter of a Fish Monger from Bangor , Maine (we had been listening to country music and Coal Miners daughter came on so that's how we jumped on that) then we thought she should be a faded star and decided to make her the worlds most decorated extra so i came up with movies and weird roles that she could be in.

We were off...I applied with MNN and with a VHS-C camera we started filming the shows in our apartment. of course, it wasn't that simple, really, we actually would edit these shows vcr to vcr by pausing and bringing a black board down on the scenes to make sure we had filler for the cuts, it was a nightmare..LOL. We had fun though. i would write the shows and Jeff would direct and film them.

The original reason for doing the show was to have drag queens on as guests but none of the ones I asked would ever do it with the exception of Linda Simpson and it ended up being one of my favorites. it didn't matter because of the 2 plus years we did the show we had great guests like Penny Arcade, Michael Musto, Chris rael, Ken Kleiber,The Hazzards, Adam Dugas, Ann Carr and our favorite Nellie Mckay. We did a lot of skit type shows as well when we couldn't drag a guest over to our apartment. Here are a couple of clips




In the end I was really proud of the show and all the people we had on had fun and I still work or keep in touch will all of them. It was funny, the last show we did was filmed digitally and edited by Jeff. It was our 2nd Christmas special.it was fun show and it went so well we decided to make it the last...LOL

We never really hit it big with the show but i know we had on the average 5,000 viewers a week according to MNN tracking.

You know I may do it again!! who knows

MargOH! has continued to grow and guess what gays I sing now in my own voice and have had many cabaret shows. The other funny thing is I still don't quite fit in, by that I mean I've never really have been given notice for what i do. I've managed to create a little niche following and I'm happy with that but I've never had acceptance by the communities I perform in whether it be Gay bars, cable Access, print, cabaret or burlesque..though the burlesque scene seems to have embraced big old MargOH!



The reason why I called this post another year, No Glammy is because in New York there is an annual drag awards called the Glammy's and I've never been nominated. Technically they are for nightlife people so mainly performers that perform in clubs. I'm not bitter about it but I've been out there and people know who i am but i still go unnoticed by the community at large.

I haven't quite figured out how to crack that nut but I'm sure i will. I just wonder why sometimes......I know i don't suck and i know I 'm not the best but i think I'm somewhere stuck in the middle...well i do think I'm the best Lip Syncher out there...but will anyone ever really know.....who knows but I'm not going to give up until this fat lady sings!

XO, BT

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Big Fat Vacation Part III

Hey Gays,

So Key West really was a blast, though there are some issues with the place, like Duvall Street is filled with meat heads and their drunken broads who fell of their cruise ships...We did do some tourist things like go watch the sunset on the pier but it was overcast so it wasn't that spectacular and we went to the tallest spot in key west, a hotel, that has a viewing deck...aah, it was OK. Probably the worst part of the trip was our trip to Margaritaville. Now we figured we'd have a drink there just because...well what a mistake. The frozen Margarita I had was terrible, the worst I think I ever had and at Manhattan prices to boot....I would think a place called Margaritaville would have good margarita's, think again..yuk

The overall impression of Duvall street is that it is similar to Commercial street in Provincetown but has more of a trashy vibe to it and the Drag Queens peddling on the street for their shows look like they'll cut ya!....

The quieter end is much nicer and less crowded and also has the butterfly conservatory which is small but really gorgeous. There was an older gay chap working in the shop of the butterfly garden and he must have fancied us because he gave us half off admission into the conservatory, geez we were hot in Key west..LOL. Honestly it was a nice gesture.

All in All Key west was fabulous and we are going back in May for a week, here are more pics from Key west, the first one though is from Matlacha, I forgot to post, it's so cute. Another cat from Hemingway house named Charlie chaplin, Jeff in front of Tropical forest and the bird that said "Hello, I love you", me in butterfly conservatory and me acting sexy by the pool...well













We left Key West after a quick breakfast for a very long drive back to my sisters. It actually didn't seem to take as long coming back plus Jeff started reading to me. he bought the book my Chris Ciccone about madonna. I actually like someone reading to me, it really passed the time and I enjoyed it. I have to say though there is one stretch of the drive in Floida that is scarey because you go like 70 miles with no exits or rest area's so like an hour, nothing but everglades and on each side. Now you know I'm usually pretty good about being prepared but we passed a rest area when i had a quarter tank of gas and Jeff said , should we stop and I said no because we could stop at an exit....Dummy me, there were no exits so gays guess what...

The gas light came on and I had not seen a sign for an exit or rest area for 50 miles and the gauge went down to e quickly. I started to panic and thinking about if we ran out of gas here. It was so nowhere...Jeff was not aware of it until the gas light started making dinging noises when we saw a sign that said Rest Area 10 miles. I didn't think we were going to make it...but thankfully we did, goodness, it was scarey. After an 7 hour drive we made it back to the villages, had a swim, played some tennis and had a ball..

The next morning we headed to Disney of course which is only an hour or so away. it was a grey day and very cloudy so we were a little worried about rain. We arrived at the hotel, we decided to stay in "The Wilderness Lodge".

We did arrive early but just to park and possibly drop our bags cause we had a date with Mickey..; ) We were excited to find out they had a room for ready for us. We were excited until we saw the room...it was fine but it was actually in the basement which they call the first floor. The hotel itself is very nice and massive but the room was sort of dark and unimpressive. The room had a little slab porch outside the room with no view and it was smack in the corner. I just thought it was an odd room and for the money we paid I felt a bit ripped off but we shrugged that off and made our way to the boat for our disney adventure.

Guess what? It started to pour buckets so we took shelter for 5 or 10 minutes but it didn't let up so we said fuck it and ran for the boat. We had to buy those plastic rain slickers they sell that smell like a science project and it rained half the day.

We made the best of it and went on rides. I especially love Splash Mountain, it's fun and Mickey's 3d adventure is really cute. The one thing I always wonder about disney is that there are never any characters walking around. The only one we saw was Captain Hook, blah! They really need to have characters running around, it would make it much nicer.

Disney is also very tiring with all the brats and crazy parents running around. The one big thing I noticed is that a lot of overweight people fo to disney. I felt thin in the sea of chunky gals and guys, some even in wheel chairs and Jazzies..I wonder why? It's a small world afterall.. Well anyway here are some disney pics. We did have a lovely time and glad we went but not sure if we'll ever return to disney....
Here are some pics. I especially like the one with Jeff and Chip and dale







After our day at Disney we headed back to "The Villages" and spent a couple relaxing days by the pool and playing tennis, aaaaah Lovely!!!

This was one of the best vacation's we've had, right up there with Hawaii and we thought Florida was going to be a big bore but we were wrong. I think we made some great choices on destinations, well, Jeff gets most of the credit, he chose the majority of the activities. His ability to set an itinerary is right up there with Julie McKoy from the Love Boat!

I have to say one of the best things about the trip was that I got to spend a bit of time with my Aunt and Mom in a relaxed setting. It was nice to see my mother relaxing and enjoying herself, which is not usually the case. That made the trip even more fun. Here are some more pics from "The Villages"...including gasing up the golf cart, what a trip!!








I ended the photo's with jeff because he did an excellent job planning this vacation and we had a blast...

XO BT

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

It's Grey and Pink Day

Hey Gays,

I'm feeling pink today...

XO, BT

The Cho Show


Hey gays,

I got a chance to sit down and watch the "Cho Show" last night.

I was a big fan of Margaret Cho in the beginning and I still am in a way. I loved her message about being accepted for who you are and her fighting attitude. Some of that spirit has been lost in my opinion and this show is faux reality. I do like that she has her parents involved and she was spot on about her mother. She has never made it a secret that she is a tad dysfunctional and she's not afraid to let that show. Her assistant is cute and supplies a lot of laughs, I wonder how long she's been her assistant.

Of course, she has her posse of gays, not quite sure who they are....I think I would be a great gay for one of these shows..C'mon Margaret give me a chance!! I bet my hubby Jeff and I would make for funny moments for you...we are a riot at home.

The show itself was fine but I'm not sure if I'll watch again, I guess I'll Tivo them and watch a few in a row.

Has anyone else watched it? She is a fatty as well, well a yo yo fatty!!

XO, BT

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

A whole new world

Hey Gays,

I just stumbled on this blog called Fat n Gay. I believe it is in German and what a fun page....

Now my blog is not meant to be about sex really but maybe I missed the mark...LOL

Plus, after looking at some of the pics....Am I really that fat after all? Well, whatever.

I was just shocked when I saw it and not sure if I should laugh or cry....

XO, BT

Monday, August 25, 2008

Big fat Vacation Part II

Hey gays,

Yes, back to vacation. I miss being on vacation already. I think vacation should be everyday,who came up with this work crap, really.

Any who, after we left Captiva Island we made our way to Key west. I mean by making our way I mean it was a driving trip of 6 hours that actually took 7 or so.

I was really excited because I thought the ride on the keys was going to be spectacular but let me tell you I was a bit disappointed. You do see a few stretches of absolutely gorgeous views but many of the keys have strip malls as part of the scenic drive...not that impressive. It was a little rainy on our way so pictures weren't that great but here's a couple of the drive.





Don't get Me wrong, there is a certain excitement about traveling to the end of something, it's weird actually but I love weird so it's for me...LOL

The Funny thing is even when you get into Key West at first I was "This is it" but then Route 1 ended and I was like, Oh this is cute, it was like the money shot in porn, LOL.

When we arrived at our Bed and Breakfast. The Mermaid & The Alligator
we were eagerly greeted by the manager of the inn Jeri, she is a lovely woman, very sweet and offered us water or snacks after the long drive. The Inn is owned by 2 gays who were pleasant but Jeri handled most of the guest interaction. They also have 2 dogs and they were a delight, one they call the muffin monster because she'll try and beg for a muffin at morning breakfast and the other a puppy who like to try and get into your room knowing he's not supposed to..very cute.

Jeri immediately sat us down in the dining room after we put our bags in the room which was called the Audubon room, it was really pretty! She went through a map of Key west and suggested different things to do and her recommendations for eating out. Usually Jeff and I aren't B&B people but this place was different. I felt welcome and the house had a sense of warmth to it. Jeri was really nice and seemed to enjoy her job, she also made great looking breakfasts, she did a quiche one morning and banana pancakes the other. I of course couldn't eat them but Jeff said they were great and it looked yummy. I had yogurt and a banana..LOL

I knew right away that it had a presence, yes, I mean like a ghost. I pick up on those feelings very quickly and of course later that night I was awoken by a faint banging on the wall over my head and the hair stood straight up on the back of my neck. I sat up in bed and lightly talked to whatever it was and said "I was just visiting and meant no harm and that I wasn't scared". I got up went to the bathroom and when I got back to bed there was just one or two more knocks then it went silent. Here are some pics of the place, If you go to Key west give them a try, it's lovely.











We were only in key west for 2 days but we did a lot. We went to the Hemingway House, The Audubon Museum, The Butterfly Conservatory and A Secret Garden. I loved the Hemingway house and all the cats, I could imagine all of the parties Ernest and his several wives hosted there with the major celebs of the day, very grand. The secret garden was fun and most of the birds talked and were very interactive, it was cute!

We ate out a few times including Blue Heaven for lunch, that was very good and we got hit on by the waiter..that's always nice though he wasn't really our type. I mean in my day I would have done him(Neil) but when you get to be my age if you're even going to contemplate a threesome they better be spectacular, wink, wink.. Here's Jeff drinking his Mojito at Blue Heaven amongst the cocks...no not the waiter, they have chickens running around while you eat...yawza and a picture of a cat from Hemingway House





Oh, I gotta go again. I have just a bit more vacation stuff to show so there will have to be a part 3.

XO, BT

Whats the Norm....

Hey gays,

I found this site that shows pics of people by there height and weight. I guess it is supposed to help you when you're cruising date sites and see what a person 220 and 5'11 basically looks like. Its called cockeyed.com


I think this is too much, funny as hell, but then I think I can't believe someone thought of this and spends time on this, very strange.

I'm posting the pic of what my weight and height should look like...LOL

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Project Runway, A Gay Tragedy


Hey Gays,

Did you gays catch Project Runway with the drag queens. I gotta ask you, how is it that a show with drag queens could be boring?

The designers really missed the mark on this challenge overall. They actually seemed
disconnected from it, very weird. I also find it funny that the ones that did the best were straight. All the gay designers couldn't handle the challenge....I wonder if that is because a lot of gay men really don't like drag queens or run away from transgendered issues so they aren't pegged Fem. I think this episode brought out the worst in Gay men and how detached they can be from their community at large. If i were a designer and had this challenge i would have went wild and had a ball. They all seemed annoyed and bothered by it!!

We know that the gays need to be masculine, it's very important! It's like I always say though, if you are on all fours getting corn holed masculinity is out the window. Let it go boys!!

I did like "Sweetie's" outfit. Nice to see a big gal look hot!

I wanna tell you one thing, Suede is a jackass and he had a lot of nerve wrangling with Hedda Lettuce. She was the client and she wasn't happy and that outfit was ugly, not her usual style at all. I'm glad she told that fucker off, he's stupid.

Any thoughts on this episode gays???

XO , BT

Friday, August 22, 2008

Health Alert for a fatty

Hey Gays,

This just in, news flash. BT, thats me just found out that I have a very low vitamin B-12 count....my count is 20 and the normal count is 400. My doctor joked and said i don''t think a dead person's level would be 20. This is obviously a Celiac related issue but he wants me to have a colonoscopy to explore my large intestine because he feels i may not be absorbing correctly which may mean I also have Crohn's Disease

Oh, great , another issue to deal with. I had gone to the Dr. because it seemed to me that my Celiac symptoms were getting worse but actually my gluten levels are negative...thats good....though this explains why i'm tired all the time and spacing out. Having a low vitamin b-12 count can make you tired and forgetful and to tell you the truth I've been having trouble remembering peoples names and not remembering things people just say to me, etc. but I thought I was just getting old.

I have to go get shots now on a monthly basis. Oh, grand! Though I read that MGM used to give all the old Hollywood stars injections to help them sustain their long hours, I'm sure they pumped Judy and Mickey with tons of B-12. I knew there was a reason that Mickey Rooney was so Spunky all the time...it's not natural...

XO, BT

Thursday, August 21, 2008

A Big fat Vacation Part 1

Hey Gays,

One of this years vacations for my Hubby and I was a trek across Florida. This wasn't our original planned vacation but due to huge flight costs and bad exchange rates for Europe we decided to sat stateside.

How we decided on Florida was that my sister and her husband bought a house in a 55+ retirement community in a place called "The Villages" which is a bit of a strange choice for them because they're only in their 40's but any who. We flew to Orlando after a 1.5 hour delay waiting on the taxi lane to take off which started getting really annoying...but we finally made it and then got a rental car and made our way to "The Villages", en- route we had planned to make a stop at an Orlando Whole food so I could pick up some Gluten Free food but wouldn't you know it when we arrived there had been a fire alarm and the whole place had been evacuated. We got a little heated because we were tired and running late plus Jeff had a run in with the rental car guy who was trying to pressure him into an upgrade and insurance....you know how they are.

Usually on my vacations time is not an issue but in this instance my Mother, my Aunt and a friend of the family Chris had been staying at my sisters place as well and were waiting for us to grab a bite and my Aunt is a little frantic about her schedule, yikes....We did finally arrive at the "The Villages" which is actually a little scary, it's like "Pleasant ville" for the over 55 set. It is this planned fabricated community with houses that all look the same, a downtown area created by Disney and oldsters zipping around in Golf Carts. The thing is that it is a gated community but everyone still is very suspicious...

The place does have some pluses like tennis courts, Golf Courses and fabulous pools so we did enjoy that and oh yes a sexy waiter named Justin that worked in a restaurant called margarita's in the sexy side of the villages called "Spanish Springs". We had a great time with the family and my Aunt's friend Chris is so Funny, she's like a suburban version of Bette Midler...and she has a gay nephew so she's always dishing about him..



We had decided to make my sisters place our base but wanted to go to key west and planned a drive. In order to break up the long trip we decided to check out the gulf coast and settled on a lovely resort on Captiva Island called "The South Seas Island Resort". The Pic below is me driving and stuffing my face with a new flavor of Lays I found on Captiva Island called Dill ranch....very tasty and Gluten Free, thanks Lays



We also stopped at a couple of little villages on the coast as well called Matlacha and Bokeelia. Matlacha is a little town filled with art studio's and shops painted in Miami like colors, bright pinks and blues...we met an interesting woman who is an artist and shop owner named Bonnie, she was really friendly and very talkative. Jeff bought a pendant that had been made from a Bombay Sapphire Gin bottle, it's really pretty...it was called the "Happy Hour Collection".. We had lunch at a little shack called Capt-n-cove which was right on the water in bokeelia, it was really good , we had a tasty chowder, shrimp cocktail and Jeff had a fried fish of some sort..yummy.

After that we headed to Captiva, yikes....it was a bit longer of a drive than we thought and for the first time our trusty "Google Maps" let us down and we got a little lost which of course led to a but of a meltdown on my part....I can get a bit testy when directions go bad....after about 20 minutes we got back on track and made it to the resort, it was lovely and the beach was great, perfect after a long drive.


We really just relaxed here and had drinks in the room and enjoyed the tropical weather....I need to live in warm weather all year round...Four seasons are overrated I believe.. The pic below is me drinking on the lanai of our room lounging in a robe, is it me or am I morphing into Truman Capote?LOL





Oh gotta run gays, I'll post the second part of the vacation lowdown asap...

XO, BT

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Manhunt and the Republican

Hey Gays,

While I was on vacation and hopping around Florida we had Sirius Radio in the rental car. It is fabulous and I can't believe I didn't get it sooner but I'm getting it this week. I love the Out channel and the talk radio, especially "The Frank Decaro Show". He is really funny and a fatee as well. I really would like to be a guest on that show. Actually my friend ken Kleiber does a guest spot on there....

Any who, while we were driving to the keys we heard about the "Manhunt" republican... They were taking calls on the Michelangelo signorile show and all the queens were in a titter about a guy on the board had donated money to John Mccain. So.....I was thinking...

Jeff and I started talking about it and I understand some of the gays positions about not wanting their money going to a republican candidate and if they feel they can't pay to be on Manhunt anymore that's great, just do it!!

The other part of the issue for me is that the gays should do their home work about everything they do, really. From the liquor they drink to the clothes they buy to food they eat. I'm sure all or most of the things we buy support the republican party in some way or another. I'm sure every company has a republican on the board giving money to John McCain.

I understand Manhunt is a little closer to home and the gay lifestyle but I would not automatically think that a website that is a gay sex site be owned strictly by a gay liberal. Actually in my experience all the gay bars I went to when I came out were owned by straight people who had gay managers running it or even in Rhode Island, the mob owned some of them...The owner of one bar "Gerardo's" was actually homophobic I think but that didn't stop the queens from drinking and dancing up a storm.

My point is that nothing can be 100% sacred and if we have problems with contributing money to something we don't agree with that's great but I think we have to dig a lot deeper and look a lot wider in order to keep a balance.

I do not think this guy should have been forced to resign for a political view, though I think gay republicans are morons, that doesn't give me the right to tell someone how to live their life or conduct business. Get over it Gays!!!

On the flip side of this just maybe the gays will stop going on Manhunt and go out more and talk to people. I miss the days before the Internet when you had to go out and be social in order to meet other gays. If not for that I would have never met my Jeff and we are going 14 years strong.... The Internet is good for many things but I don't think it fosters community, it makes everyone passive aggressive and creates more labels.....

OOH! goodness, I'm tired now..... I'm sure this whole Manhunt thing will "Blow over" ......LOL

XO BT

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Michael Phelps, OH! Please!


Hey Gays,

Before I get to my vacation tales...there has been something on my mind and that is Michael Phelps, well not really him exactly but the media blitz and especially the gays gushing about how hot he is and being called the sexy sports figure of the week, etc., etc, etc.

The thing is I feel that if Michael Phelps was not a swimmer and didn't have gold medals and walked into a gay bar no one would probably even look at him. I'm sure some people may find him attractive but honestly he's kind of homely to me and I'm sure the gays would feel the same and he'd probably be a wall flower wanting someones attention....he is tall an lanky with big ears, weird jawline and crooked teeth...c' mon gays get off your gold standard and really take a look at him...

I'm sure he's lovely and a nice person but most gays only go for what they can see so really Would you want Michael Phelps if not for the fact that he is a gold medal winner?....I think not....

I get a little heated when the gays go ga ga......Oh, please...

xo, BT

Monday, August 18, 2008

Big As a House


Hey Gays,

Before I fill you in on my vacation I wanted to share this pic. I was frolicking in the Gulf of Mexico when this photo was taken.

Sometimes I don't realize how big I am...I don't see it in the mirror....but goodness I'm big as a house...LOL

xo BT

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Vacation all I ever wanted

Hey Gays,

I went on vacation and decided to leave all the tech stuff behind, especially the lap tops and emails... I wanted to just get away with my hubby and unwind with no worries. We had a great time and I'll post pics and a few stories tomorrow. I just got back today and i'm tired.

I do have one topic I want to talk about and that is "Fat people and Disney"? I spent one day in disney and I would say 80% of the people there were overweight...and some even in wheelchairs and Jazzies....Does Mickey and Minnie make people want to eat? Think about it...

I'll be back tomorrow with a update on my vacation tour of Florida...LOL, it was fun!

XO, BT

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Where's all the Fatties???


Hey gays,

So where are all the fat gays? or maybe even a fat straight person?

I've been doing this blog for a month and not one comment. I tried listing my site on "Best Gay Blogs", not sure if they did or not?? I'll have to check.

I was really thinking there were other gays like me that felt ostracized by the gay community at large for being overweight and the focus of tight abs and firm pecs kept me out of the club.....I guess I was wrong....but I won't give up...

It's funny... I'm not a twink, I'm not a bear, I'm not a Chelsea boy, I'm not a str8 acting masculine gay, I'm not a fat and fem.....I'm just a chunky gay so where do I fit in......aaaaah

That is the real question? Where do I fit in?

Maybe the answer to that is as plain as - "There is nothing to fit into, the gay community is a farce?"

or maybe- "There is nothing to fit into and you just have to pick and choose other gays that you can get along with and have fun"

or maybe- "I don't know, you should ask Ellen" I mean after all Ellen in the all knowing gay and the savior of our people (you can tell i love Ellen...not really)

The answers to these questions can go on and on and on....so why not take a chance and say hi ho or will I have to post a nude....

The gays love a nude...

xo BT

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Paul Rudd Winked at Me


Hey Gays,

I don't usually get too many crushes on celebrities but I've had a huge man crush on Paul Rudd for years. I don;t care if he's thin, fat, chunky...he tends to go up in down in weight like myself...He's so damn adorable and he just seems so sweet.

Living in NYC you see lots of celebs and usually in everyday places like the supermarket, Barnes and Noble, Virgin records, health food stores...etc. etc. I've seen Drew Barrymore in Virgin records, Ted danson in Banana Republic, Susan Surandon in a cafe, Cameron Diaz at a nail salon,Matthew Broderick, Jimmy Fallon (another man crush), John Lithgow (who was rude to me), and many more but the other day I was walking up 2ND ave...

When to my surprise Paul Rudd was coming out of Dunkin Donuts and he and I literally banged into each other. it was his fault actually because he came out using his back to open the door, he had a Rite aid bag in one hand and an ice coffee in the other. Well it all happened so fast and I didn't have the time to tell him he was # 1 on my "Free Pass" list or that I just like him and his movies.....You're really not supposed to do that in NYC..Gush over celebs....

Also a "Free Pass" is a game my hubby jeff came up with that means that we have a list of 5 men that are mostly sports, music and movies men that we think are hot and would like to have sex with. Of course it would be a long shot for either of us to even meet them so we say we are ok with one another doing any guy on this list. Once in a while we talk about it and update this list, like Jeff's # 1 has been Patrick Rafter but he also has another tennis man on his list Rafael Nadal right up there.

Anyway, back to Paul! We did make instant eye contact and I of course apologized and he responded with "My bad"....oh, how sexy....LOL. He also said Sorry and before I could say anything else he winked and scurried away. I think he was embarrassed, his cheeks got a little flushed. The best thing was I had a whole block to watch him walk away and he is in one of his thin phases and really is quite attractive in person. he is shorter than me and I'm not sure but I though i smelled cigarette smoke on him..is he a smoker??? Not sure....I don't care, I'd want him anyway...LOL.

The thing is I think he lives a few blocks away from me, I watched him walk down and he took a left on 27Th street...I live on 23rd street.... I'm not the stalker type so no worries Paul but I do think I may start going to that Dunkin Donuts. This is the first person on my list I've been this close to so I'll have to check with the hubby and make sure my "free pass" is still valid....

He did wink at me after all!!

XO BT