Visions

Hey gays,


Since I was a kid I've had the ability to sense things. It started out as very strong deja vu. I know many people have the sense they've been somewhere before but mine was much stronger. It was more than a feeling, it was more like I knew I had been there. I remember many times when I'd be standing somewhere looking around and my mother being annoyed, it usually was a park or water area's. Often I would lay down and look up into the sky and try to imagine what it was like before and even a few times it always came to thinking about Indians. I spent a lot of time in the woods when I was young, it felt very safe to me...

Over the years things have not changed, there were times when the visions went dim but most anywhere I have been, lived have always conjured up feelings of spirits. My freshman year of College I would see a woman walking the halls that no one else would confirm seeing, the dorm was a converted catholic school, the woman wore a black robe so I figured she was a nun, though some people talked about hearing a woman moaning at night, they couldn't see her.

Years later when I lived in Pawtucket, RI I would see a woman standing over my bed, she actually scratched me, after explaining to my roommate he told me that a woman had been murdered in the house in the 1950's. She was not pleasant at all, she scared the shit out of me. The room I had there also collected massive amounts of dust, she really didn't like me there..spooky

In New York I would see a woman sitting at out computer desk and in the laundry room in the basement. One time she came right up behind me, I could feel her almost breathing. She was very lonely, she was longing to be part of something, this was the first time I felt as if i could say something and she'd respond but I wasn't sure how to go about it...


When Jeff's grandmother died she came to visit us one night. That was the first time I actually felt the presence and when I closed my eyes, I could see her sitting in the rocking chair in the corner. she changed the temperature in the room. This was also the first time I couldn't control the feeling, I sobbed and even my body ached for a few minutes. I felt she was trying to talk to me but I couldn't hear her. i did find out that the vision when i close my eyes is referred to as a third eye by psychics, mediums, etc. This was the first time I felt that I could communicate, meaning that Isabel had come to me first or tried to use me to communicate. I'd never had that feeling before, crossing boundaries.


Then last night after I got into bed Miss Binks visited. Jeff was in the other room. It happened about 5 minutes after i got into bed. I was laying on My right side and the hair on the back of my neck and arms got rigid and I turned over and up a bit over my head across the bed was an ill formed mass, a little milky with little sparkles that faded in and out, I leaned over and put my glasses on and it then moved over to the chair we have next to the bed, slid down next to the bed, I reached out across the bed and touched it and it then flattened out, almost like it was walking across the bed and it settled right on her blanket and stayed there for a few seconds.

I asked if it was kiawah and when I closed my eyes I could see the sparkles a million times brighter, like fireworks almost, I knew it was her and again I just started crying, it then went back up hovering over the bed. I got up to tell Jeff and he came in. I could tell she was still there but the energy had faded a bit but Jeff said he could see it a little. Also during the night twice I went to move my leg and it felt as if she was there on her blanket, Jeff said he also felt as if she was brushing up against his leg. This experience was light and fluffy, airy and delightful.

For the first time in my life I feel I need to learn about these experiences I have and how to communicate with them. i know the third eye is unique from what I have read so far and is the gateway to communication.Its something that people usually have to tap into but it just occurs for me so now I have to figure out how to use it. I don't know if I'm psychic, I've never predicted anything or read any one's mind. I know I'm not interested in that really, I'm more interested in communicating with people....

I was really excited about Kiawah last night, i feel much better today after her visit...I hope she comes back soon..the energy was so positive and fun.

XO, BT